Like an awkward teenager waiting for a first kiss

Kourtney and McKenna on their way to school.

Today, I took Kourtney and McKenna for their 2nd day of school this year. It was McKenna’s 2nd day of school ever and my first day to take her.

We walked into a new school. I was calm on the outside…a basket case on the inside. Both girls pretty much left me and took off directly to their respective classrooms. I blew the transition! There were supposed to be hugs and kisses. But, that moment was lost.

At this point they were in their class around their soon-to-be friends. I didn’t want to traumatize them or make them look silly by doing our routine. I’m not sure what the protocol is in this uncharted area. So, what did I do? I hung around in the hallway like an awkward teenager hoping and waiting for a kiss. I came up with a thousand reasons in my head for why I was still in the hallway. Alas, someone I knew came and made small talk with me.

After that, I stuck my head back in the classrooms and told the girls’ teachers I was appreciative that they were taking such good care of them. Then, I left.

My heart was throbbing.
My hands were sweaty.
I was smiling albeit nervously.
I was now on my way to work.
I called Kelly and compared notes.
We were both giddy as we shared the juicy details of our awkwardly wonderful school exchanges/drop offs.

There is nothing more amazing than seeing my kids grow up to need me a little bit less than the day before. It’s amazing…and amazingly frightening. But, I couldn’t be more proud about my gangly, awkward adventure on the pursuit of Dad-dom. Cheers.

Kelly shares more pictures and a bit of her first day story here.